Friday, December 29, 2006

 
MENOPAUSE IS NOT FOR SISSIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jUST ASK MY HUSBAND.......NO WAY COULD ANYONE THINK OF HIM AS A SISSY BUT HE HAS ABOUT REACHED HIS LIMIT WITH ALL THE HOT FLASHES, NIGHT SWEATS, MOOD SWINGS................OH LORD THE MOOD SWINGS............*SIGH*
GOOD THING HE LOVES ME. WE are on the downhill side of this thing i'm sure.......i hope...........i BETTER be!!! it's been almost 3 months since my last period and altho everyone tells me i probably will start again i am hoping they could be wrong.............i'm taking some herbal day and night time and it does seem to help alot...........but i do have my moments of pure evil...........i remind myself of the girl in the exorcist...........lol. i have booked april 21st at the eagles for my surprise 50th birthday party. i want one, i deserve one and i'm gonna have one.
i still have a houseful of people.......5 extras.............but probably not for much longer. things are a changing.
i've been spending time at my dd's house. that has always been a hard relationship for us both, but maybe we are getting closer. her children are absolutely adorable and i enjoy spending time with them. we've invited them(dd and sil--not grandbabies) down to the eagles with us a couple times and had a really exceptional time.
as you get older, your kids grow up too and it's much easier to like them when you aren't butting heads with them. and you can get even with them by spoiling the grandkids rotten.........lol. sometimes life is fair--you just have to wait
i've been quiet here, on all my lists, haven't touched my "sticks" in 2 weeks or so....................i'm in a pondering phase....looking around and taking stock of life...................my life...the good the bad.............there are things i wished i had done differently and the things i wouldn't change for the world. somehow, if you put them on an imaginery scale they seem to balance out perfectly. i have learned that there are a few truths about myself that i can admit with pride
i am a much better mother than mine............(so is attilla the hun but still)
i am a great grandmother...........almost as good as mine was
i have the ability to love more than i ever thought possible
until the day i die i will think jeff has a great ass
i am amazed at how proud i can be of my children
being a grandma is the best thing i have ever done and i love it the most
i'm a hellacious bartender...........not a glamour job but damn i'm good
i have acquired the ability to accept things i never thought i could
i'm an ok wife
i could be a better friend
i am a great sister to one brother and not so good to the other brother
i can take care of myself but i'd rather not
it makes me gasp every time my sil calls me mom.
being married is no better and no worse than being single......neither are perfect
then the things i don't like about me:
i am the worst procrastinator in the world
i LOVE junk food
i'm too heavy(see above)
i enjoy smoking
i never thought i would live this long and didn't take care of myself
i should start but probably won't --see the first one
well i probably could say more about many subjects but there is always tomorrow................